Goodbye 2010

I can't say that I am not happy to see this year come to an end. For me this year has had it's share of up's and downs, happiness and sadness, lost and found. I feel like each year I get older I learn more about myself. Each part of our life tests us in a way we couldn't have imagined and throws things at us we may not always be ready for. This year has definitely done a lot of throwing at me. Things I didn't know if I could handle, but I did. Or maybe I couldn't but I overcame my fears.

I feel like my year in review isn't really all I had hoped it would be. I had so many ideas and so many plans. So many things I wanted to accomplish left undone. There was so much more that I did do so here is my 2010 in review.

At the beginning of this year I put into play I wanted to get healthy again. Get back to a shape and size that I was comfortable with. With the help of a personal trainer and a lot of hard work on my part the first six months of this year I lost around 30 pounds. I plan to continue on this venture into the new year and get serious once again.

I have gained and built amazing friendships. Formed bonds that I know will last a life time. I can't even begin to explain the role that my best friend in NYC Tamiqua has played in my life. She has been there for me through everything. My up's and my many downs. She has helped me through my tears and given me tough love when I needed it. And to her I will be forever grateful for the value and friendship she has added to my life.

I have also learned to trust my instincts even more than I did before. Sometimes insecurities play a role on our thoughts, and emotions and we feel that at times they may cause the lines of our instinct to be blurry. But believe me listen to your heart and your gut.. it always knows what's going on.

I have learned to be stronger on my own. To not rely on the love and friendship of others because at the end of the day you are the only person you have to hold yourself up when others let you down. Be strong for yourself no one else can do it for you.

I have learned that love is tested. That no matter how strong it is or how much you love someone something unexpected can always be thrown your way. It's how you choose to move on that shows the strength of your character. It may hurt, but if it didn't it wouldn't really be love now would it? In order to hate you must love. Just remember what's important to you so you don't lose it.

I have always believed that everything happens for a reason and everything happens in the right time. I learned I am going to be a mom. It may not have been planned but I couldn't be happier about what my future holds and this little life I have growing inside of me.

2010 I say goodbye to you with found memories, and not so found ones. I look forward to the excitement and new joys that 2011 will bring my way. I wish you all a Happy New Year and that the last 2 days of your 2010 shall be everything you've hoped they would be!