Calling you out

At the beginning of last year I started working out with a personal trainer. It was my goal to get back to a healthy weight and a place that I was happy with myself. I lost 30 pounds in the first 6 months of the year and maintained it in the last 6 months. I still desire to continue to lose weight but being pregnant makes it a little more difficult.

When I found out I was pregnant I discussed it with my personal trainer and luckily he is certified in pre and post natal working out. I was so excited because I felt that I was still going to be able to meet my goals regardless of the fact that I was pregnant. Over time you build relationships with these people in your life. He was my trainer but he was also my friend. We worked out together, grocery shopped, got coffee, went to the beach etc.

About 3 weeks after I found out I was pregnant I went to the gym to meet my trainer. I was not in a good mood but as most of you who are my friend know my moods are often up and down. I warned him before I got there and I guess I said something to offend him because he stopped returning my calls and scheduling work outs. I didn't know what was wrong until a mutual friend told me I offended him. To be honest I am hurt and I feel let down. I tried to confront him and speak to him on the issue and he wouldn't respond to my phone calls or text messages. How do you fix a problem if your not willing to face it? I am frustrated because we did have a friendship but this is also a professional relationship. I paid for my sessions in full and still had several remaining that at this point I have just lost out on. I can't believe that someone who I thought was my friend but also someone that I could rely on to help me reach my goals. I have never pretended to be a pleasant person to be around. And if I am not in a great mood I am sure that the fact that I am pregnant amplifies that.

I guess right now I am at a loss. I am upset about the loss of a friendship but I am more upset about the loss of the support system I had to reach my goals. I have such a fear I am going to gain this weight back in my pregnancy and be an unhealthy mom and not be able to continue to reach my goal. I am currently in search of a new trainer so if anyone knows anyone who is good in the NYC area let me know!

I am upset and I just need to vent about this situation because I still can't believe that it happened and that he wasn't man enough to confront me about the issue. It hurts and it sucks when you thought that there was more to your friendship than that.